Saying goodbye in stressful times

Hello,

I am Jennifer Williams certified dog trainer and I killed my dog… Please read the full story.

I know it has been a long time from my last post.  Ranging from aggression cases, pet sitting, dog walking and regular dog training classes it has been hard to sit down and do a decent post.  I ended up coming to a quick stop in January when I ended up in a car accident and a car on top of me breaking my back.  I had moral support from family and friends but once again my amazing dog Nyssa who had work beside me (In dog training) became an emotional support dog.  When my PTSD kicked in during the night she would wake up and come to my aid until I was able to fall back to sleep.  When my fiance had to go to work she kept a watchful eye on me.

Nyssa was helping me just as she had always helped everyone who she ever meant, she was more than just a dog she was my daughter.  Some dog trainer’s may tell you not to look at your dog as a family member like a human I am here to tell you do so!  You will form a bond stronger and know that you have a dog that will always be with you and willing to work their hardest to please you without being in fear.  You will get to know your dog in more detail than those who just view them as lower being.  Dogs are amazing, and when you view them in a higher light they become even more amazing and are able to reach higher goals you have for them.

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Within a week of me returning from the hospital, in a back brace and stuck in bed Nyssa all of the sudden took a turn for the worst.  She would still be willing to go outside and go to the bathroom and eat, but as soon as she was done she would come in and lay down and go to sleep.  The joyful playful five year old Golden was now sleeping more than our 8 year old Golden.  It was like something had sucked the life force out of her.  The first vet had no idea what was wrong and my fiance was sent to the CAVES emergency room.  It was there she ended up having an ultra-sound where the vet saw liquid in her heart sac.  That liquid was crushing her heart, they stated they can drain the liquid and there was a good chance that this was a fluke and would not fill up again.  As soon as they removed the liquid from the heart sac she was back to herself but the vet wanted to keep her over night just to make sure she was stable.        20150223_143508

It was at this point the hell weekend began, her heart sac would keep filling and they would have to re-drain the sac.  we were waiting for another expert to come in on Monday to see what a spot was on her heart.  Most of the vets believed it wasn’t cancer and my fiance and I wanted to know what was going on before we decided what to do next.  She was comfortable and mostly stabled with a few dips here and there.  For some god unknown reason this emergency vet did not have on call ultra-sound readers for the different body parts.  To me, they should always be on call, after all emergencies do not just happen during the week.  Monday came, and we were still waiting to hear what was going on with Nyssa, half of the day was gone and we finally called getting sick of waiting.  We wanted our girl back home with her family.  Once they had finally finished reading her scans we got the phone call.  It was the hardest phone call I have ever had to take.  I was informed that the spot was cancer, and it was a rapid form of it.   It wouldn’t have even matter if we had brought her in a month ago the tumor wouldn’t have even shown up.

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We asked if there way anything that could be done.  The vet said, yes a $10,000 surgery to remove and repair the heart, then chemo, and radiation.  This would give her at most 6 months to live three of which she would be trying to heal from the surgery and cancer treatments.  It was at this point I had to hand the phone over to my fiance as I felt like someone had stab me in the heart.  Once we got off the phone, I got help out of bed, got my back brace on, and went out with my walker.  I did not care about the pain ranging from the car ride to even walking I was going to see my daughter.  Once we got there we waited in a private room and the vets brought Nyssa to us, she was having a good moment, and had enough energy to run up to me and give me a lick on the face.  We talked to the vet some more making sure that what they stated was true, and there was no other way.  We were told to take our time, which then we asked if we could take her for a walk around the building outside.  She loves walks, it was a freezing cold day in January but Nyssa loved the winter.  While my fiance walked her on leash I trailed behind with my walker, once in a while taking a few pictures and videos of the two of them together

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  After the walk we went back inside to warm up in our private room and spent a few more hour with Nyssa.  We told her how her older sister was doing, what was happening at the house.  We also made her some promises.  When I was in the room with her by myself I told her what an amazing dog she has been and I only wish that we had more time together.  We started to noticed she was loosing energy and we knew from what the vet told us she was losing too much blood at this point.  When I looked at her gums they were white and I knew it was time before she had a heart attack.  We called in the vet, and while I wasn’t able to get down on the ground with her my fiance held her close and we said our goodbyes.  The vet told us we were doing the right thing, and her honestly would not put her own dog through the treatment that she told us about.

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I can’t tell you how much those final moments seemed to slow down.  The vet with the needle, I wanted to scream and stop her before she did anything to Nyssa but  I knew if I did I would only cause  Nyssa more suffering in the long run.  It would be selfish of me to keep her going only to have the cancer come back somewhere else in her body.  It would be selfish for me to put her through a surgery after going through four tappings (to remove the liquid) and then chemo and radiation only to have her last few months feeling sick from the treatment.  This form of cancer was the worst from what they told us, and easily travels around in the blood system just to find a new location to grow.  My mind was spinning in those final moments, those moments where she cuddled into her daddy and those moments where her ears perked up as I said her name and that we loved her.  It was so unreal, and then just like that her body became still and heavy in her dad’s arms.

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It was at this point we both lost it, we lost Nyssa and there was a huge hole left in our heart.  We left the vet’s with her collar.  We came home, Aya her older sister seemed to look for her which was the hardest thing to see.  I couldn’t eat for a solid week and could not stop crying for close to a month.  It just seemed unfair for the universe to take her during the time we needed her the most.  And it was hard to accept that she was gone for all of us in the family.

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So how do you deal with the loss of a family member?

A lot of people have asked me this over the years.  Each person is a little bit different and each person takes a different amount of time to saying goodbye fully.  I started to realized that even though she was physically gone I knew I had all those great memories we shared.  I focused more on those memories instead of the “Oh we never got to…”  For myself I found it very helpful to have her ashes, as well as have a photographs placed on canvas.  Too often have I seen families lose a dog, then it almost seems as if that dog never existed.  If we have photos of family who have passed away why can we not do this for our k-9 family members.  Next to her picture we have her collar hanging up and her CGC medal on the other side.  I want to remember she was here and I want others to know she was here on this earth, and she did make a difference to my family and others.

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Other ways I have seen people deal with their passing is having a tree planted with a little name plate next to it.  This is a lovely way of remembering your dog as the tree grows.  Others I have seen make facebook pages for their dogs to share photos and memories.  Do not let anyone tell you or push you to “get over it, its just a dog”.  This person has no idea what you family member meant to you and it is clear that they have never had the connection you had with their dogs.  Like I said before it is ok to take time to deal with the loss.  The biggest thing you have to remember which took me a while to accept is that I did do the right thing for her.  I made sure she wasn’t suffering in the end.  Most of all if you are having such a hard time you can not function get help from your Doctor, it has been proven the humans bond with their dogs in the same way and level as they do with human children.  It is understandable if some suffer from depression just don’t stay alone in that dark place.

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Is it ok for me to get another dog?

Yes, it is ok.. for some it may take months, years, or even weeks once again it depends on the person.  Myself I waited until I felt some peace with what had happen.  It was also true with how quiet it was we felt we needed some new life in our home.  On top of that we knew Aya was becoming depressed being alone, matter of fact she went from a solid red color to whiting out on her face within a month of losing Nyssa.  We waited until we got the right feeling about a litter and did our research.  Once we brought her home we had a whole new set of challenges not just potty training and training in general.   We started to catch ourselves trying to compare our new family member to Nyssa.   Catch yourself ahead of time and understand this is a new life and soul.  There will be differences and there will be things that are the same but this is a new family member.  Remember that they are just starting out in life with a blank background and are learning from the beginning do not freak out or be disappointed because dog A used to be able to do this but our new dog B is not.  When you let go putting down your new puppy or dog this is when your relationship will start to grow and learning with take place for the both of you.  You are starting a new dance with a new partner in this life and you both got to support yourself.

Always remember your past family member would want you to be happy and that they will always be watching over you.

To read more about what has happened to Jennifer Please go to my Gofundme page:

http://www.gofundme.com/Jenniferwilliams

We love you Nyssa and we miss you.  You will always be part of our family!

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“Good Girl!”

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Please help even a 1.00 goes a long way. If you can not donate please share! Nyssa’s Emergency surgery

Hello,

Nyssa is a English cream Golden.  She helps out her mother during dog training in aggression cases as well as a demo dog.  She also helps with educational sessions with young children.  Before her emergency she was learning how to work along side her mother during a massage session to help out clients who are in physical and mental pain.  Any amount would help out and even sharing would help as well.
For more information about Nyssa please go to her Gofundme page:

http://www.gofundme.com/jj490k

Once again thank you  and happy new years!

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Breed Specific Legislation- A warning for all breeds.

First of all you will have to bare with me as I am posting this as is.

Over the years different countries and even different states have been hacking away at the rights of dog owners.  The worst of the attacks is Breed Specific Legislation.  While this tends to be aiming at the Pit Bull breed and ripping them away from their families to put them to death, it doesn’t mean it will stop there.

Many fears about the Pit Bull breed is unfounded and is due mainly from uneducated people(and in some cases even owners).  Yes there has been Pit Bull attacks however, there has also been: Lab, Goldens, Poodles, Corgi, as well as any other breed under the sun has bitten humans.  Any living thing here on earth can bite and cause some damage to the human body.  What it really comes down to is the education that is provided to the owners as well as the dogs themselves to make them socially accepted by society.

Education is the key:

With no laws needed for education most owners tend to grab the first dog they see.  And then many do not find the help thinking they know how to raise a dog.  Many owners may take outdated tips from T.V shows who hosts are not really educated with up to date information about dog behavior.  This can leave owners in believing that they must dominate and use force on breeds such as Pit Bulls.  Aggression and force only creates a ticking time bomb as the dog can become aggressive or even afraid due to the training methods used on a dog.  Using more up to date methods such as Positive Reinforcement correctly makes a stable dog who will respond to cues every time he or she is asked.  As there no fall-outs(other than the dogs loving all the positive attention) from this way of training the likely hood of an aggressive dog coming from a Positive Reinforcement home is highly unlikely.

Educating the breeders:

Ranging from Pit Bulls to even doodles- breeders need to understand that they must breed in care of the personality they wish to pass onto the puppies.  The likely hood if they breed two dogs who are highly aggressive to have some aggression in the later line of blood is most likely going to occur.  This has happened in cases of humans when two people have children who have anger issues.  While training can help curve and teach new behaviors we want the dog to perform the puppies will have a better chance if they come from a responsible breeder who takes in count the health of their breeding stock as well as the emotional state of the parent dogs.

Tough look is over rated:

Sadly there are some owners who should not own Pit Bulls as they use them as a status tough guy (or girl ) look.  A dog is not something to add to your looks a dog is a living breathing thing that becomes part of your family.  A large issue with the image of Pit Bulls is thanks to thugs who think the dog makes them look tough and in turn raises a dog who is not socially accepted.  Understand each time you own a Pit Bull YOU are responsible for the rep the breed gets and in turn are the reason of the high death rate in Pit Bulls (I understand there are families who raise Pit Bulls correctly I am talking about the other half who don’t).  Your Pit Bull doesn’t need spikes, chains, chokes, prong, shock, or anything else spiky to make them a Pit Bull or to make them look tough they do not need that image.  Pit Bulls need to be seen for what they really are which are loving caring family pets who more than once have saved their loving family.

Some maybe asking why would a Golden Retriever lover be so worried about a Legislation against Pit Bulls.  I love all breeds of dogs, Pits are no different… I plea with people to get education because if that is in place, bite rates for ALL breeds will go down.  Lets face it, this law should scare all dog owners as any one of our breeds could be next in this Holocaust against dogs.  Take a stand do not allow this to happen…Be an example for your breed, get the education from a force free trainer and understand that you and your dog can make a difference.   Vote those out of office who would tell you who can and can not be part of your family.  The Breed Specific Legislation is unethical and inhumane to put into practice… Punish the deed not the breed.

I hope the many dogs even those who were not Pit Bulls but were called one due to their looks made it safety over the rainbow bridge.  Lets stop this barbaric practice.  Killing breeds will not make a town, city or country safe… Education is the key.

Information for Pit Bulls:

The prototype of the breed originally sprang from crossing the old type of Bulldog with most likely

the English smooth Terrier.  Sadly the way they made it to America is due to their dog fighting skills in the 1800s.  During this time is how they gained their common name today “Pit Bull Terrier”.  Along with that name they were also know by: American Bull Terrier, and Yankee Terrier.  Americans focused more on a bigger size of the dog while the English version was smaller.  As time went on the two blood lines ended up diverging and in 1936 the ACK recognized the breed as Staffordshire Terrier.    As breeders where breeding the dog they were aiming for a loving trusting dog which at times was misused.

Temperament: Typically docile and playful with family, if socialized correctly they are also friendly with strangers.  While this dog breed is good around children NO dog should ever be left alone with a child.  Nor should a child be allowed to rough house with any breed.

Breed of the Month: Nova Scotia Duck Tolling Retriever

 

Nova Scotia Duck Tolling Retriever 

History:
Nova Scotia Duck Tolling Retriever was developed in Yarmouth County, at the Southern tip of Nova Scotia during the early nineteenth century. It was crossed between: red European decoy dog (Or so to believe), spaniel, setter, or retriever as well as the farm Collies. The first Toller came into the USA during the 1960s.

  

  

Temperament:
These dogs have a lot of energy being alert but, not hyperactive and can adjust too many circumstances. They are good with children, other dogs and pets. They are willing to please and wanting to learn. But bore easily and then can be a bit stubborn. 


Health:
Major concerns: none
Minor: CHD,PRA
Life Span: 11-13 years
Males: 45-52Lb Females: 35-42Lb
Height: Males: 18-21” Females: 17-20”

  

  

  

Training Tip: Start as soon as  you get your puppy.  This means as soon as you pick him or her up from the breeder start leash training as you are walking to the car with the puppy.  With treats in hands and being positive with getting the puppy to come to you, he or she will have a better start and understanding about the leash and what needs to be done.  

Different dogs, have different drives, one Nova Scotia may be more food driven, while another puppy maybe more into toys.  Bring both toys and treats and see what the puppy reacts to the most.  You will now know what the puppy will want to work for to please you.  

Gear tips:  While collars are pretty and a nice place to hang your doggie tags on, collars can lead to damage within the thort of a growing and older dogs.  I would highly recommend using an easy harness the body  version.  By using this kind of harness you know there will be no trauma to the thort while there is tugging or pulling.  The harness itself allows the body weight of the dog to be more even out around the whole body.  By also using this it allows you to also train your puppy and older dog that walking next to you will get them further down the road.  So keep the collars for the tags, and use the harness for walks, it will give you more control in a more humane way. 

   

   

Next Time on The Green Paw: 

The Dog Father–” The Perfect Dog”  Or as I call it -The Perfect lie-

Lets clear somethings up as it seems a lot of his information is out of date, and way off track.. His attack against Positive Reinforcement…

As well as an Intro about clicker and Positive Reinforcement-  The need not to be aggressive to your furry family member.